My current state can be summed up in 3 words:
Weak and Powerless :-(
Thank you all for your love and caring.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Transplant Day +15
It's Megan again. Still too tired. Eating seems to be the last thing he wants to do. nothing really sounds good. They still have him on IV nutrition and hydration.
Transplant Day +14
Megan here, Steve has been too tired to update the blog. Nothing new to report really. They have him on a soft diet so he is attempting to eat.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Transplant Day +13
Greetings friends!!!
Today was a wonderful day. My 3 beautiful children came up to visit. It just made my whole day. I haven't seen them since I got admitted back about 11 days ago. I love them so much and this lymphoma and stem cell transplant has made me realize the many changes I need to make in my lifestyle to help them grow up to be happy, healthy well functioning adults.
Also, my niece Jen called. That also made my day. I haven't seen her in such a very long time and miss her dearly. I was so nice to hear her voice, we had a great talk.
More good news, the removed my N/G Tube this morning and started letting me eat some mild, soft foods. The diahriah seem to be getting better as well.
Thank you God and your Wonderful Son Jesus Christ for such a good day.
Hemoglbin 10.4
WBC 3.4
Platelets 38
Today was a wonderful day. My 3 beautiful children came up to visit. It just made my whole day. I haven't seen them since I got admitted back about 11 days ago. I love them so much and this lymphoma and stem cell transplant has made me realize the many changes I need to make in my lifestyle to help them grow up to be happy, healthy well functioning adults.
Also, my niece Jen called. That also made my day. I haven't seen her in such a very long time and miss her dearly. I was so nice to hear her voice, we had a great talk.
More good news, the removed my N/G Tube this morning and started letting me eat some mild, soft foods. The diahriah seem to be getting better as well.
Thank you God and your Wonderful Son Jesus Christ for such a good day.
Hemoglbin 10.4
WBC 3.4
Platelets 38
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Transplant Day +12
Greetings all!!!
I just wanted to make a quick post, I am extremely tired. I wanted to apologize mainly to my beautiful wife Megan. You have been so strong throughout all of this, and done so much that I am amazed by you and your spirit. I now, without a doubt, know that I am the luckiest man on the face of this earth to have you and your love, devotion and strength. I do not think that I could get through this without you. I am sorry Megan, that for the past few days I have let my spirit get so down and started to feel sorry for myself. I am sorry that you have had to see me in this shape, whimpering and whining, complaining about everything under the sun, and you already worrying so much, spending so much time here, then having to go home and deal with life. Well my fighting spirit is back and I am ready to do whatever it takes to see this through!!!!
I promise you Megan, when we get through this and I am back up on my feet, you are going to feel like a Princess. I am going to give you the best life you could have ever imagined and make you feel like the luckiest woman on earth, I PROMISE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
To all friends and family, thank you so much for your prayers and/or well wishes and positive thoughts. I know that they have carried me through some very difficult times and will continue to do so. THANK YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS.
Hemoglobin 10.6
WBC 3.1
Platelets 41
I just wanted to make a quick post, I am extremely tired. I wanted to apologize mainly to my beautiful wife Megan. You have been so strong throughout all of this, and done so much that I am amazed by you and your spirit. I now, without a doubt, know that I am the luckiest man on the face of this earth to have you and your love, devotion and strength. I do not think that I could get through this without you. I am sorry Megan, that for the past few days I have let my spirit get so down and started to feel sorry for myself. I am sorry that you have had to see me in this shape, whimpering and whining, complaining about everything under the sun, and you already worrying so much, spending so much time here, then having to go home and deal with life. Well my fighting spirit is back and I am ready to do whatever it takes to see this through!!!!
I promise you Megan, when we get through this and I am back up on my feet, you are going to feel like a Princess. I am going to give you the best life you could have ever imagined and make you feel like the luckiest woman on earth, I PROMISE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
To all friends and family, thank you so much for your prayers and/or well wishes and positive thoughts. I know that they have carried me through some very difficult times and will continue to do so. THANK YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS.
Hemoglobin 10.6
WBC 3.1
Platelets 41
Friday, April 25, 2008
Transplant Day +11
GREAT SONG---"Zzyzx Rd." By STONE SOUR
I don't know how else to put this. It's taken me so long to do this, I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight. My muscles feel like a melee, my body's curled in a U-shape. I put on my best but I'm still afraid.
Propped up by lies and promises, saving my place as life forgets. Maybe its time I saw the world. I'm only here for a while, but patience is not my style, and I'm so tired that I gotta go.
What am I supposed to hide now? What am I supposed to do? Did you really think I wouldn't see this through? Tell me I should stick around for you, tell me I could have it all. I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go.
I get to go home in one week, but I leaving home in three weeks. They throw me a bone just to pick me dry. I'm following suit and directions, I crawl up inside for protection. I'm told what to do and I don't know why. I'm over existing in limbo, I'm over the myths and placebos. I don't really mind if I just fade away. I'm ready to live with my family, I'm ready to die in obscurity.
'Cause I'm so tired that I gotta go.
Where am I supposed to hide now? What am I suppose to do? You still don't think I'm going see this through. Tell me I'm a part of history, tell me I can have it all. I'm still to tired to care and I gotta go.
Hemoglobin 10.2
WBC 2.3
Plateletes 49
Thursday, April 24, 2008
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